Anxious!! When things go haywire, I feel anxious. When I am not up to what people have benchmarked, I feel anxious. Things around me blur in tandem and I realize this is how I looked at the world now. My perspective towards life has changed. I am more worried about what others think, how they perform and when should I put my best behavior. My innocence seems lost in all this, the transition from my journey of being ignorant of the world to my journey of being tolerant of the world, my journey of just being myself in this world to my journey of just not being me in this world, my journey of having acceptance with the world to my journey of struggling with the world.
My mind which is running like a roller-coaster wants to halt, halt not to the current destination but to a stop it surpassed long back. It wants to be restored to its current state. It hates to get updated to this new version and longs for the transition to restore.
Anxious to hold on to this new phase of life and anxious enough to hold on to the fact that this phase would last longer
