My thoughts appear and disappear in tandem, my eyes waver at random..
My feet change course on encounter and my heart has become a severe doubter..
Why do I not trust myself? Has this been for long or has it surfaced just right now,..
How do I surface all my feelings at one place and a common point? How do I teach myself that trust cannot be regained, no matter what? & How do I conclude myself that you cannot continue your story after the final dot.
Maybe the leap of distrust from others has eventually lead to my right brain not trusting the left, my right ventricle not helping the left, and my right kidney not in sync with the left.
The journey of having faith in someone is very prolonged, you abide by the person in increments, i.e. slowly and gradually, and with faith comes respect, you start respecting that person. It is built by relentless efforts and sometimes it takes years to do so.
But this journey can also be ceased in a matter of some seconds. It takes a toll when you lose it, be it on yourself or others. It can be lost in any form; the other person might make you feel uncomfortable; creating an aura of negativity and fear around you or the person might stop responding to you like earlier; affecting the bond you share.
The degree of losing faith in someone solely depends on the relationship you share with the other person and irrespective of how little you know a person, faith can be lost in the initial stage building of the association as well as at the later stages.
Unfortunately, there are no gray shades in losing faith; either you achieve the pinnacle or the nadir of the journey
My thoughts still appear and disappear in tandem…..
